Sunday, August 14, 2011

Lessons from a Panic Attack

It's been a year (plus a week or so) since my first panic attack. I wanted to post this a week ago, but things are crazy busy at the work place and every where else. I tried to do it last week while proctoring a day of exams, but the work computer kept me from getting here. Anyway, here are my lessons from the past year...


  • I have an AMAZING husband! Had it not been for his love, compassion patience and chauffeur skills, I don't know what I would have done. It made things easier to know that he could take the reins in our lives while I got it all together!

  • My mom is still an amazing person in my life! No matter how old I get, I am still her "little girl" and she would do whatever she can to make my life less stressful! I loved having our Lourdes chicken soup lunches as she took me to therapy every other Wednesday.

  • I have a large support network...and need to rely on it more! I learned who my friends are and need to acknowledge and accept that love and support!

  • It's okay to forgive...my father, myself for past mistakes, and all the other things I carry around as penance. It's okay to forgive the hurt and anger I carry with me to this day!

  • It's okay to ask for help...I am not superwoman no matter how hard I try...in fact, that's one of the reasons I ended up where I did.

  • It's okay if I don't get it all done...there are still days when I lay on the couch as opposed to doing (insert chore).

  • I need to take care of me first...I've always been so giving of me...I could fix it for everyone else, but not myself...it's okay to say no!

  • It's good to speak up...not holding it in...

  • It's okay to not have a major life plan...day by day is just fine!

  • It's okay to stop comparing my life to others...I don't know others' circumstances.

All in all, it's okay to be me at the moment where I am and with what I have...I'm going to survive this!